Our dear beloved Caveman has gone home. His dear Mary was waiting. They will never be separated again. Continued prayers for Erin. She’s lost both parents in short order. I know she’s going to have a tough time, despite her Dad doing all he could to make sure she was taken care of.
I gathered a few lines from some of his beautiful emails that spoke to me about the kind of man he was. Our world is emptier because he’s no longer here, but fuller for his having lived among us.
Sadness, regret, even remorse too. I wish I had done better. Yet such things remain past now, and I must leave them there……Mysterious sensations.
But to remember one is human too, with human weakness.
A sense of purpose sought…….
Yet why are my eyes full of tears?
I will not run from this…taking it head on.
I do not run anymore…….neither through distraction or recreation.
Those days are gone…
To all things in their time………..
So I simply process thoughts and wait….
Deep in thought, I do that a great deal now….
I don’t even like going to sleep at night……and I don’t do it well.
Those nights have been few……and I smile at the thought.
Looking at the back yard…..and remembering…..
As I have said, so often in the search for what we want…
we forget what we have…..
Until you don’t have it any more…………….
And then you know………..then you know……
As a child, all I wanted to do was love and share…..
The world will not permit that, so you learn and grow…..and cope in whatever chosen manner suits you.
I write a lot, that remains my catharsis….and my chosen way…..
My faith in and love of God has never been stronger….
Some have questioned why….I never did, or have.
How could any God allow……?
Remembering what happened to Jesus, for worse than my time…
And it was chosen
For another….
Rest well Kent.