And if nobody really wonders or cares, we blame all of that on ourselves.
But we at least owe to to whomever still checks out this site to see if anything’s happening, and G-d bless you for it, we are truly not deserving of you, to let you know that we’re not dead.
We, oh bugger, I am just extremely tired. My life right now basically consists of eating, sleeping and working as much as I can possibly get away with in order to keep my family fed. No, I don’t ask for pity, a lot of people have it a lot worse that I do, I’m just trying, inadequately I’m sure, to explain why I just can’t find the energy or time to do much other than that.
It is what it is. Priorities.
Also, after almost two decades of this, of trying to sound the alarm, knowing what I do from what I learned growing up where I did, and noticing that the majority of my fellow Americans are too pignorant and just plain uneducated to ever want to listen to actual experience (and I’m not talking about you, dear readers, but all of you and myself don’t exactly constitute a majority), I’m just getting worn out.
You can lead a parched, dying horse to water, but you can’t make the imbecilic, dumb, ready for the glue factory animal drink. Apparently. When I was young and naive, I thought that maybe people would listen to other people with actual real life experience of the dumb ideas rattling about their brain group housings. I was young and naive. People don’t listen to facts, they listen to what they want to hear and ignore everything else if it even mildly contradicts their masturbatory fantasies.
It doesn’t mean that I’ve given up. I’m not, unlike the majority of our fellow citizens, blind to what is inevitably going to happen. What can’t go on, won’t. And the shit is going to hit the fan when it can’t go on any longer. And when that happens, as it is becoming ever more depressingly obvious that it will, that no amount of common horse sense and basic understanding of history (which is no longer taught in this once great country) will be able to avert it, then I’ll be where I’m needed, doing what needs to be done.
I’ve just gotten intensely tired of shouting and pissing into the wind. And with that, and the sheer amount of other issues in the lives of myself and my beloved family needing my immediate attention, I’ve become lazy in writing. After all, after two decades, what can I possibly say that I haven’t already said? And if it didn’t take after all that time, what is the likelihood of it taking if I keep repeating myself for another two decades (if G-d wills it that I should be punished with watching mankind’s incurable stupidity and ignorance for that much longer)?
I apologize for that. This site, originally just a place for me to vent to myself and the two people who might want to read it became, faster than I could have imagined, so much more than that. I cannot count the number of wonderful, caring, passionate American patriots and just plain troublemakers aiming to misbehave just like myself that I’ve met thanks to this site. I have been truly blessed and every minute I’ve invested in it has been worth it with interest. I wouldn’t do a damn thing different, because it might mean that even just one of you awesome people would have never crossed my path and made my life so much richer because of it.
You, to me, are all family. The times we’ve shared, the parties some of us have met at, the stories we’ve told, the things we’ve all gone through together. That’s all valuable beyond compare. And that’s why I can’t just pull the plug. Maybe I should, but I just can’t. This site isn’t about me, it’s about you. All of you. This site wouldn’t be what it is without you, so to pull the plug would not be just dropping a “hobby”, it would be burying something that, it is obvious to me, I didn’t really build. At least I didn’t build it alone. I couldn’t have.
So yes, I’m still here, for those who care. And as to those who don’t, I don’t blame you. I blame me.