Since it’s apparently, and long overdue if you ask us, all the rage for us former commie fuckheads to come clean about our past dalliances with our former “comrades” who’d now love nothing more than to shoot us right between the eyes for our heresy against the Communist/Socialist/Fascist/Progressive Utopia of Next Tuesday, we present a link to a long post by one of our fellow comrades, Mike Vanderboegh, a post in which he tries to atone for the wrongs he, like I, have done.
It’s well worth the read, it certainly made me choke up quite a few times, but that may be because I know how deep the guilt of treason, no matter how long ago, hurts.
Mind you, I never got near the levels that he or Horowitz achieved in their youthful alliance with the inhumane teachings of socialism, but that was merely because I never got the chance. I am deeply ashamed to admit that had I had the opportunity back then, I probably would have jumped at it. That’s the kind of True Believer™ that I was.
But as with sin, it’s not the actual act, it’s the willingness to commit it.
Read it, if you want to understand former leftist “heretics” like myself. Read it, if you want to understand how we never, ever will forgive ourselves for it no matter how much time passes. Read it, if you want to understand how we are more fanatic than even the most patriotic rightists alive when it comes to protect what we see as our personal salvation from the idiocy, mistakes and traitorous acts of our youth. We will not, we CANNOT backslide into that, because we will carry that guilt to our graves.
What we CAN do is to warn others. Warn them about the lure of the siren song of the leftism that we gave in to so long ago. Warn them about the shame of having done so, a shame that will never be washed away.
And use all that we have learned from having been among those leftist, tyrannical swine to destroy them until they are nothing but a bloody footnote in future history books.
Because they must be destroyed. It is, indeed, the only way to be sure.
Liberty and socialism cannot coexist.
And we traitors know that better than most.
TO THINK THAT THE BOSS WAS ONE OF THESE……………………………………………………………………..
to believe in the system in which you were raised is no sin. to have reached the mental maturity to critically analyze that system and reject it as flawed, then work to make the world a better place, makes you a hero, not a traitor. at least to me.
I remember those days – had a few of my own. Along with a few other things in life, the remembrance is very painful on occasion and leaves me wondering what the fuck was in my head and also wondering where it came from considering my upbringing. One considers the teachings of Marx as sensible when younger but never realizes… Read more »
Read that whole post, and damn, was it a not-fun read. I gotta agree with Hilljohnny – you and Vanderboegh both made the logical choices in light of how you had been raised / educated. I know that’s the case with Horowitz, a “red-diaper baby.” That’s why so many of the first ropes have to be for the necks of… Read more »
I was once again brushed with the hand of G_d when I turned from my own morally bankrupt socialist leanings. As a Navy vet who participated in Operation Eagle Pull, Operation Frequent Wind and what is being called the last battle of the Viet Nam war, the Mayaquez Incident, I was moved to comment on how far I’ve come from… Read more »
Sire, Delurking for a moment to post some thoughts. I’ve been reading this site since 2004 or so. You are being far to hard on yourself. God is all about redemption and what happened in the past is forgiven and forgotten. The fact that you are Christian and that you “came to see the light” speaks volumes about your character.… Read more »
We all have our dragons, Misha…. I certainly have mine as well, Sire. But those of us having manned up, learning from the experience, we know the true value. It why we fight so fiercely for it, along with honor, a few other things I can remember. For I remember a day, as you do too….. There is nothing to… Read more »
“But as with sin, it’s not the actual act, it’s the willingness to commit it.”
Um… I’ll be the first to raise my hand and say I’m fucked, then. 😉
LC Mike in Chi says: A Motley Crew we dogs are here and our roots are what defines us, tempers us. Prodigal sons and Freejacks and Grizzled O_Gs with a message born of Empirical knowledge and hard knocks. Thanks again Misha, for the venue and the turn. You would’ve been an awesome commie mastermind. Instead, you’re an awesome host to… Read more »
Me too. But then I believed all the tripe I was told in kindergarten just like all the superannuated 6 year-olds do today about equality and sharing. And they never told me Then that real life is exactly the opposite. So what’s the answer on how to inculcate maturity in the recalcitrant among us who will do anything to improve… Read more »
LC Spare Parts says: Me too. But then I believed all the tripe I was told in kindergarten just like all the superannuated 6 year-olds do today about equality and sharing. And they never told me Then that real life is exactly the opposite. So what’s the answer on how to inculcate maturity in the recalcitrant among us who will… Read more »
I had a 5th grade teacher that had a huge sign above the chalkboard that read “life’s not fair, I’m just preparing you for life.”
I won’t ever forget Mr. Jones.
Tango9 @ #:
The government did – the “social contract”. It’s the ultimate adhesion contract – you’re bound to it, they aren’t. I had been cynical before I first read the legal opinions on it; as soon as I finished, I made my former self look positively Pollyanna-ish.
Okay – I find the need to ask this, Misha – and it’s probably something that’s been answered any number of times, but just as probably during one of my radio-silent periods. I’ve heard it said that ‘A Liberal is just a Conservative who hasn’t been mugged yet’. What was it for you? What was the makeup of that turning… Read more »
Fa Cube Itches says: Tango9 @ #: No one had you sign a contract when you were born The government did – the “social contract”. It’s the ultimate adhesion contract – you’re bound to it, they aren’t. I had been cynical before I first read the legal opinions on it; as soon as I finished, I made my former self… Read more »
Wait….. How do we know he’s not a double agent ensnaring us in his evul plan? Muwahahahahahahahahaha.
I gotta be careful, I could get put on double secret probation…..again….
i did my part by killing foreign commies but i do regret not being allowed to kill our home grown commies.
Patience grasshopper, patience.
midazian says: The fact that you are Christian and that you “came to see the light” speaks volumes about your character. Just like the apostle Paul had his road to Damascus trip, you too found your moment. And just like Paul who became the most ardent and effective disciple for Christ, you are doing the same for our cause. That… Read more »
” I once was lost, but now I’m found. Was blind, but now I see.”
Tango9 @ #:
Exactly my point. Altruism is a byproduct of civility not a cause of it. All the little darlings need reality in their faces from day 1 without the smarmy warm fuzzy mythical pap about what the world should be like.
Misha: Everyone was young and stupid once – fuck, do you know how many of my perfectly good chewing teeth are made out of porcelain from a youth wasted on brawling and drinking and rutting around?? You grew up. You repented. And your knowledge of how the prog-bots work is invaluable. Most of us never were amongst their ranks, and… Read more »
I was never a leftoid. There was a spell in eighth grade when for about a week I thought I was a Commie, but I was mistaken, and never really veered from my Right Wing Nature. My main lapse is that I failed to do more and sooner. Coulda, shoulda enlisted maybe three years earlier, and styed in longer. Of… Read more »
LC MuscleDaddy says: What was it for you? What was the makeup of that turning point – that moment or event where the weight of your idealism broke-center? There’s always one. First off, I apologize for having been gone for so long. The Imperial Family invaded (and much fun was had by all!!!) and my dance card has been quite… Read more »
And to the rest of you all: Thank you! I appreciate it, but I will never ever forget my stupidity and working for what is wrong. It is a feeling of guilt, well earned, but it is also a gift. It sustains me. It bolsters me when I find myself faltering in the face of the bromides of the reds,… Read more »